arabia4u
01-16-2008, 07:13 PM
Hmmm today sucks. Guess it's cuz of the whole big Samira fight I had with my friend last night, and of course, she hasn't gotten off my mind since then. She's still in Iraq, Im over here in Canada, it doesn't get any easier by the day, and I'm beginning to face the very thing I've wanted to push to the back of my mind for so long. What if she cant come afterall?
Am I over thinking? Maybe, but it's a very real possibility. Hard? yes. definitely. and whats even harder is that, u know how most things u can really open up and talk about with like, anyone? this isn't 1 of them cuz no1 seems to understand where I'm coming from. as I've said before they think I'm a total Samira freak...maybe, but she's family, and she's not here. not with me! do u know how that feels? I do. first hand. I want my baby back...
I hate keeping silent about this, my worst time is night time, because it's all dark and silent, and my thoughts all drift back to...u got it...
So I've just eventually gotten used to keepin the whole Samira thing to myself and putting on a brave face. not no more. it's not working for me, and maybe it'll help to just publicly say, I miss my baby!
Am I over thinking? Maybe, but it's a very real possibility. Hard? yes. definitely. and whats even harder is that, u know how most things u can really open up and talk about with like, anyone? this isn't 1 of them cuz no1 seems to understand where I'm coming from. as I've said before they think I'm a total Samira freak...maybe, but she's family, and she's not here. not with me! do u know how that feels? I do. first hand. I want my baby back...
I hate keeping silent about this, my worst time is night time, because it's all dark and silent, and my thoughts all drift back to...u got it...
So I've just eventually gotten used to keepin the whole Samira thing to myself and putting on a brave face. not no more. it's not working for me, and maybe it'll help to just publicly say, I miss my baby!